Random Lost my Mind day.

Auto Matic Writing

Sitting here should be in bed. Sick been sick all damn week. Tired of being sick. Sun shinning on me from the window burning a hole in my side. Guess that’s how this writing it going to go. Way out of line. Way out of space. Space is a place full of little stars that should be called my fluffy names like tinker twink and bumble Lisa. No idea where that came from. Where does it ever come from? From our mind. Our crazy crazy hazy maze of a mind. A vortex waiting to open up wide and swallow real thoughts. Real actions, real places and faces. Faces with facts we run and hide. Hide from dreams I think I’m hiding from mine. But then I have been on meds for coughing and ache for days no wonder I can’t recall a damn thing. Silly rainbows of mind numbness filled with candy canes flavored with bee’s wax like ear wax only taste better. Does it taste better? Need another Hot toddy although there was way too much lemon in the last one. Not that the toddy is helping. But makes the time past faster. Should be passing time in bed rather than on the computer writing this stupid crap. But wait there is a blue in the horizon of hate filled trees. Pine trees. Grass, ice falling from the roof. The roofs not falling though so that’s good. Need to close the blind the sun in blinding me. Where is my mind? Lost lost I tell you. . Thank god that was the last sip. In no hurry to make another of those although its way better than all the other shit I have been shoving in my body. Fucking dr no med. She is fucking nuts I tell you. She might as well jump off the building thinking she has wings. Flying like tinker bell landing in the sand of hell. Hell a place to go to warm up? Or will hell freeze over? It is January after all but then there is always another January thaw. Thaw from the snow or thaw from the cabin fever I’m getting from being stuck in this damn house. I wanted this house so bad but I need to run from it today. Far away from my room and my bed if only my body thought the same thing. Little green people dancing on my key board are really typing this you know. Come take the green people away. Take me away. Colgon take me away. You know I really never really liked that stuff. It smells nasty. To flowery. Is flowery even really a word? Oh hell it’s English we can make them up as we go right. That’s what we do anyway. We fall and fall from high places than stack lots of books of slang up to climb back up. No tower card if you can climb back up? Yes there is always a tower card. Tell Hillary that. Stupid bitch. Why does Hillary like morning sex with Bill? That way she is always the first lady. Yes ladies and gents. Thank play boy for that really bad joke. I have it stuck in my head from them. Their entire fault. No one better to blame than Hew. But than again the girls next door make a lot of money. I wonder how much money they make. I bet its enough to buy lots of boy toys. I would buy girl toys but they are so fucking complicated. If you don’t believe me by the time you are done reading this that chicks are complicated than you didn’t read all this. I want what I can’t have and have what I want but want more. I want to be my own boss but like the job I have. I want ice cream but can’t have it why? Not because it makes me fat but because I’m sick and it will make me cough. Gods damn it all. And why is 99 red balloons in my head. Jo it’s your fault you and that song. Have to have someone to blame. Isn’t it always the blame game? Can’t take on our own responsibility right? What fun is that? Fun something I need to have. Drawing maybe I could draw. I can’t think of a damn thing I want to draw other than a Koi in transformation and I have no clue how to draw that. But that image has been in my mind for days. Each night before I go to sleep I think about it. It would be a great tattoo. Hell yea.
Gold fish giving head to grape Kool-Aid. Hey we are the grape Kool aid gang! Random thoughts from a random mind. Mine to be for sure but not sure I’m of sound mind. Although I do keep hearing lots of strange sounds in my mind. Ding dong the witch is dead or just sick and should be in bed. Damn it this needs to just fucking go away.
One little ant left the big hill to set out and find his way home. I squished him. Mawahahaha. No clue really I have no clue where this stuff is coming from.